I feel happy.
This summer I want to work hard for an ethical company. Hike deep again, especially hit up the roller coaster on the Appalachian Trail. Get conditioned for next winter and ski some old lines. I want to pick up old adventures, anything that was taken by an abuser. I'm really digging working on my passions again. And ok, maybe find some sweet lovin' along the way ha!
Speaking of sweet lovin', Apple ^_^. He's kind, creative, smart, quite handsome, and finds me to be a "lovely lady". We broke it off. Ok ok, It was a bit more ceremonious than that. Apple broke it off back on Korean New Years, because I was emotionally holding back. A couple weeks ago I reached out to him, wearing my little heart on my sleeve. We met up and eventually divulged summer plans that put us in very different places. Plus I feel grounded enough to hold someone's hand, and Apple wants to work on his grounding before he holds someone's hand. Yup.
After realizing all this we spent one last afternoon together. It was probably the best time we ever had.. We knew how we felt about each other, but understood our lives are plotted on different parts of the map. Shared a lot of ambitions, jokes, wished each other luck, and didn't say goodbye. I genuinely believe Apple is a good person. Whoever gets to hold hands with a grounded version of him, she'll be a lucky gal.
Spyro + Wumpa Fruit = *X